Maria Kang

Nach Jahren voller Schmerz

Instagram-Star bereut Brust-OP: Implantate entfernt

Trotz der physischen und seelischen Beschwerden, die über Jahre andauerten, sei sie zunächst zu eitel und unsicher gewesen, die Implantate entfernen zu lassen.

Instagram-Star und "Fit Mom" Maria Kang (39) aus Sacramento (Kalifornien) ließ sich nach 16 Jahren die Brustimplantate entfernen. Sie hat es einfach nicht mehr ausgehalten, denn nach der Schönheits-OP ging es ihr schlecht: Essstörungen und Depressionen, chronische Müdigkeit, Herzrasen und heftigste Brustschmerzen. Das alles nur, weil ihr jemand vor einem Model-Wettbewerb 2003 gesagt hatte, sie müsse ihre Brüste machen lassen, um zu gewinnen.

 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Breast implants are linked to cancer. Last week the FDA recalled Allergan, a breast implant manufacturer who’s textured implants increased the risk of developing breast implant-associated anaplastic large cell lymphoma (BIA-ALCL). ⁣ ⁣ Distribution has halted for both their BIOCELL saline-filled and silicone-filled implants worldwide. ⁣ ⁣ This is a cancer of the immune system - which is interesting as thousands of women with implants are experiencing autoimmune issues. ⁣ ⁣ Including myself.⁣ ⁣ Immediately after my surgery I underwent complications: from a hematoma, lack of sensation and numbness. It always felt foreign and uncomfortable to me and impeded on my ability to effectively nurse my sons. ⁣ ⁣ But like many - despite how I felt, I loved how I looked. Breast implants are normalized throughout the fitness industry. There was no way for me to be lean and have fatty breast tissue at the same time. ⁣ ⁣ It wasn’t until I was continuously massaging my chest from pressure and pain, when I thought about explanting. My good friend removed her textured implants when she dealt with continuous joint injuries and gained 30lbs in 3mths. Another friend was dealing with fatigue, brain fog, chronic pain, anxiety and depression.⁣ ⁣ I began feeling heart palpitations, chronic fatigue, dry eyes, joint pain and weight gain. I was perennially exhausted and finally said enough is enough.⁣ ⁣ I explanted one month ago and since then my fatigue immediately went away. My eyes don’t feel heavy. My inflammation has declined and most of all - I feel FREE. I feel ME.⁣ ⁣ I feel like I’m finally leaving the young, insecure and impressionable girl I once was and am coming into the strong and confident woman I am today. ⁣ ⁣ When you know better, you do better.⁣ ⁣ I hope the 400,000 women who implant yearly do their due diligence in researching the risks. I hope women in the fitness industry start rocking their lean, strong and natural physiques! ⁣ ⁣ I hope we all learn to love our bodies, at all sizes, in all forms and at all stages. ⁣ ⁣ #breastimplantawareness #explant #bii #noexcusemom #bodypositivity #mariakang #breastimplants ⁣ ⁣ Image by @truelovephotos

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Statt ihr Selbstbewusstsein zu stärken, habe sie nach der Schönheits-OP jahrelang gelitten: "Ich erinnere mich an den Tag, als ich die Entscheidung getroffen hatte“, schreibt Kang. „Ein Teil von mir starb an diesem Tag. Ich mag es nicht, irgendetwas zu bereuen, aber wenn ich heute meine vernarbten, tauben, leeren Brüste ansehe, bedauere ich es, jemals gedacht zu haben, sie wären nicht gut genug."

 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Dear Followers,⁣ ⁣ I’m sorry.⁣ ⁣ I don’t like regrets, but I have a few in life. As I look at my scarred, numb and deflated breasts today, I regret ever thinking they weren’t good enough. I fell into the insecurity trap. ⁣ ⁣ I remember the day I made the decision to augment my breasts clearly. I didn’t research. I never thought about needing or wanting it before. But, when I was told it was something I “had” to do to win - I did it. Without question.⁣ ⁣ A part of me died that day. ⁣ ⁣ For years after I struggled with binge eating, Bulimia, Body Dysmorphia and Depression. I felt disconnected in the objectification of my body. ⁣ ⁣ While uncomfortable, it took years to remove them...I became pregnant multiple times, built businesses and traveled often. Those are all Excuses, though. ⁣ ⁣ The truth is, I was still scared and insecure.⁣ ⁣ I was stuck in the social media world, where fake physiques are rewarded, “liked” and valued. I feared my husband’s opinion. I liked how I looked in clothes and swimsuits. I was vain. And I own that. ⁣ ⁣ Lao Tzu once said, “you will only get better, when you’re tired of being sick”. It wasn’t until I couldn’t stay awake throughout the day, when the chest pressure increased and when the flutters in my heart started appearing - when I said enough is enough. ⁣ ⁣ I’m sorry for my presence - for unconsciously normalizing an unnatural body standard, not expressing my challenges with body image and not being strong enough to unfix this years ago.⁣ ⁣ I hope my vulnerability will encourage you to love your body and to value spirits that love their bodies too. I hope you know that all the filters, body altering apps, fillers and fake body parts will not make you more beautiful than you are right now.⁣ ⁣ You are beautiful. You are enough. You are valued. You are prized. You are “liked”. ⁣ ⁣ Thank you for being with me on MY journey knowing that yours may look different and still, that’s ok. We are ok.⁣ ⁣ Love,⁣ Maria ⁣ . ???? by @truelovephotos #breastimplantillness #explantjourney #bii #explant #bodypositivity #noexcusemom #mariakang #apology #reflections #fitmom #boobjobdiary

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In einem bewegenden Posting erzählt sie nun, dass sie trotz der physischen und seelischen Beschwerden, die über Jahre andauerten, sei sie zunächst zu eitel und unsicher gewesen, die Implantate entfernen zu lassen.

Maria Kang: "Ich entschuldige mich für meine Selbstdarstellung, dass ich unbewusst ein unnatürliches Körperideal normalisiert habe, ohne mich zu meinem inneren Kampf zu äußern und dass ich jahrelang nicht stark genug war, dies rückgängig zu machen."

 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

It’s taken some time for me to put my thoughts together as so much has happened these last few days. I successfully had an explant surgery with total capsulectomy and scar tissue removal on Thursday. However, on Friday (swipe left) I underwent a Hematoma and needed emergency surgery for internal bleeding (which I was awake for!) I consider today, Day Two of my healing. ⁣ ⁣ As many know I’ve been experiencing heart palpitations, joint pain and acne for years. Most recently the chronic fatigue and chest pressure became really unbearable to function (and stay awake throughout the day!)⁣ ⁣ Some doctors will say this is all psychological and choosing to remove implants when undergoing autoimmune symptoms creates a placebo effect - after all, many feel better almost immediately after surgery. ⁣ ⁣ This is my take - as I’m often a very black and white person when it comes to things. Your body will fight against foreign objects, I instantly felt it years ago. Yes scar tissue builds up, yes your liver detoxes, but it is not normal or natural. Change will create change.⁣ ⁣ If you are considering surgery or had your breast augmented, just do your due diligence. In my years advocating to people around me NOT to do it, 100% of them did. And I get it. We don’t think about the long term effects, the regular maintenance, the toxic chemicals in silicone or the risks going under in any surgery. We just want to feel and look more “beautiful”. ⁣ ⁣ As a young, impressionable girl, I got the message. Unless I had smooth skin, long legs, a proportionate physique, full breasts, a small nose, plump lips, thick hair....I had less chances of winning. I literally bought into this. We all do. Every day. ⁣ ⁣ Well today I am winning. I am winning for my kids, my overall health and my longevity. I am winning. ⁣ ⁣ Keep in mind, I don’t live an all-organic life, I am aware toxins exist everywhere - but if I can choose to not have them live in me, I choose NO.⁣ ⁣ Thank you to Dr Hause in Sacramento for literally saving me on a late Friday evening. Thank you to all the DMs, texts, prayers and posts. I SEE those who care. Thank you. ⁣ ⁣ #noexcusemom #bii #breastimplantillness #explant #saline

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